Baby, I say nothing more. The three words say it all.
I appreciate you so much. The days whether your shagged, you still
walked me home. The days when I give you a bad day, you'll walked me home.
Bought me chocolates to get me back the feeling of elation. & every possible
reason that make me stay with you.
Because your the miracle that touched me. Heh!

The nest right at the patio of my house.
Its been the second time the same specie of bird
make a nest at the patio but on a different plant.

Each & every time I went over to have a look, the mother bird just
hurriedly flew out from the plant & started chirping as to alert
the father bird there's an enemy. heh. Then both of them start to chirp.
Stupid birds, chirping won't help.

Okaay, that's just about it.
Have to get back on the house chores. -_-'
While Cik Na is away, its me who had to replace her.
But not for long, 3 weeks ajeee. I will survive!

Suddenly I miss going to
weddings. I'm craving for the Briyani rice
& the desserts, the sweet drinks, the lively
environment.
There's a massive change in me that
I have noticed.
I love staying home nowdays.
& I miss my boyfriend.
:D

Its all the responsibility and hardwork that says it all.
Maybe the pass times that built a more secure belief that
I'm not ready yet. I shall not express it out but to take it as a learning
lesson & to improve my inner self.
I always wanted to travel alone with my friends. My elder sister & brother have done that.
Maybe they've gained my parents trust. Its so frustrating.
But its okay, my time will come.
In life, whether you come from a wealthy family or poor family,
its just a background status.
Its whether you've learn to adapt to new situations & environments,
relate to your pass experience & learn from it , respond to it professionally.

Vacation to France was a blast.
Although not the whole family could follow,
it was still enjoyable spending time with mummy, daddy &
younger brother. It sure bond us together after the trip.
I'm lucky to be getting the opportunities I have & will always treasure them.

Some kids just don't know how to appreciate friends.
When they are suffering then they know how to look for them, begging,
promising, etc.
I realised that you use your friends only for your benefits.
When you say '' your friends are not beneficial''.
You should be ashamed of yourself borrowing 2k and showing
how irresponsible you are..
So much for promising to my mom that you'll be getting your life back on track.
For someone who helped a stranger just for the sake of the community,
you should be thankful & she doesn't deserve your childish act.
Oh yeah, not forgetting you prove me one thing,
that you can't manage to solve your problems and kept
running away from it or maybe just can't solve it yourself.
Dependable that you.
Im ashamed to be your friend,once.
Berubah lah kau sebelum kau diberubahkan. Amin :)

Everything is falling in place,
I get all going under my control.
These few days had been emotional for me,
not about friendships nor relationship but relationships
with family. I've been so sensitive and pampered & when all
hit me at one go, I breakdown and chose to solve my problems
by following my heart but didn't thought of it wisely.
Since then, they help me open up my eyes,
Things doesn't go easy like we've planned.
If its there, grabbed it, if its not then work hard to earn it.
Now that the shining sun is on my side, I'm smiling wide.
Elated about the improvements I made.
Not forgetting boyfriend who have always been pampering me,
comforting me, praising me,
putting back my fallen pieces.
Putting back my smile to where it once was.
throughout the lousy days of mine.

Got a little something for boyfriend.
Although I didn't make it on time at 12am to wish him,
I still make it. 40 mins late onlyyy.
Though of getting him a birthday cake but I was at Town.
& couldn't find a suitable cake for him.
So walked around 313 and saw this chocolate shop.
Its really divine rich chocolates. High-end chocolates ok.

Grabbed 2 of those which contains wine.
Then came across a flower shop
make a banquet of flowers and off to meet the others.
Ella was really sleepy already but thanks to the bird shit, she laughed like nobody's
business. So much for me tricking her. Me & my big mouth. HAHA
Chilled at Plaza Sing then come around to Wanna B and surprised him.
The rest was karoake-ing the song 'Always be my baby'. Perfect background music.
HAHA!

Yesterday was topsy-turvy but we have a hell lots of fun.
Anw, HAPPY 22th BIRTHDAY HAIRUL AZROY (:
Hugs!

Went out with the crew people last Saturday to town.
Then had our dinner over at Wanna B Cafe.
Boyfriend cook my Creamy Salmon Aglio Olio & I love it.
Went down to the first level to karoake with the geng.
& had a photoshoot session. Fantastical!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA.
brought my whole family to WANNA B Cafe to celebrate mom's birthday.
Spend time karoake-ing with the whole family was awesome
though we weren't a family of singers. Heh.

Its wasn't planned to where we were going.
Its was our 6 months of knowing each other. HA HA.
Stated in the calender tau.
Went down to Wanna B Cafe to meet his colleagues, then ate at
Arab street cause I was craving for mutton ( Arab style), with the spices.
After eating, I remembered there's a nice place to hang out.

The ECP expressway. We chilled there, the scenery was AWESOME. First time went there, maklum not sure of how to get there. I know when my dad drove passed there, saw ANGMOS jogging at the side.
Thank goodness Azroy knows the way.

We chitchat about the things that were happening and discussed
about it. Then he noticed that partly the sky was bright. We didn't
think of anything at first.
He then asked me '' Can I be your boyfriend?"
I'm speechless, really-really.
I really thought of it deeply.
And I answer whole-heartedly.
:)
Then from far view, its somehow blurred and hazy.
When I look properly, ''Its that what I thing is it?"
The rain is falling slowly.

We ran from ECP to Tanjong Rhu there and
took our time to walking to Geylang to
get ciggarettes.
What a perfect day even though its not so perfect (:
I

That one guy whose giving out his best &

always trying to be better

each single day........ to save the relationship.

-I do appreciate you boy.

''Relationships couldn't be so bad after all''

Its just a normal Sunday. Gf was sick so i came over to

check on her. Yes, don't mention it.

Randomly slack on a wide field

while the sunset could be seen in a distance. Cantik oi.

''There's nothing more beautiful than mother nature''

Talk crappy, silly, beneficial, impossible things that just came across our minds.

My bangs really make me look 3 years younger.

It was cut at 2am when boredom overcome me.

But amazingly it look professionally cut.

Ohhweee!

My Friday was spent all alone at home.

Maybe its the right time to spend time on
my own to ease my mind after a long week.
Went blading just around my area in the afternoon.
Made some fresh home-made juice
for nenek, maid and myself.
I guess i should find more benefial stuff to do on weekends
and make full use of the precious time im given rather than
bump around and parties. Cheyy.
But really ahh, I'm 19 soon.
Unless im 17 again, I won't mind.

Its proven that chocolates are not just junk foods.

It was a mundane Monday. So maybe I thought

of doing some research on chocolates. The everyday thing for me.

It’s the classic soul food. Chocolate contains tryptophan which is a chemical that is used by the brain to produce serotonin. Serotonin, in boosted levels, create the feeling of elation.

It’s as good as sex. Chocolate also contains phenylethylamine – the same drug that reaches peak levels during orgasm. Probably why having melted chocolate makes things twice the fun.

The only reason you leave that someone or something
behind cause you may think that u don't need
it or it doesn't fulfill your need that moment.

But never regret of your actions cause its what
you felt at the period of time.

Would you rather stay with the one that you know
can take care of you, always been patient with you, making
every single day, your day
or just go with the one you miss, the one that you can open up your thoughts
too, argue and object with.

It kills me deep within to stay and look at him who
hope for me to be his one day and knowing the feelings
won't be there.

I know its not possible to find another him but I rather leave.
Love is like a trial, if it meant to be yours, it will come back.

Something is just pulling me back from my happiness.

Here I am spending my whole day at home,
facing the screen of the computer from afternoon till now,
supposed to work today but last minute changes.
& this week ask for early days in the week but was to no avail.

This week busy with Christmas eve & upcoming dance performance.
I'm working for 2 days in two weeks, 1 day per week.
How great.
How am i suppose to clear my shopping list. -.-'
HAHA.
& get Azroy his A|X watch.
and maman its not A-I-X eh?? ;D

Now I'm eating corned beef with bread, oranges & coco crunch.
That's what I do when I'm still awake at this time.
Stuff in more foood.

Got to run.
Hugs!

I've didn't realize what I've about to loose.

Not appreciative, till its gone.

Been busy working which its a sin towards a few.

But its too late too reminisce everything.

The person once to be just a stranger passing by me

asked questions with obvious answers, now became one of

the people who I've never regret knowing, ever.

It wasn't my intentions to ignore you.

But i'm happy knowing you found someone.

if not I'm the selfish one here.

Thankyou.

Oh gosh, please built up my confidence and show me the right path to take. Amin.