Its proven that chocolates are not just junk foods.

It was a mundane Monday. So maybe I thought

of doing some research on chocolates. The everyday thing for me.

It’s the classic soul food. Chocolate contains tryptophan which is a chemical that is used by the brain to produce serotonin. Serotonin, in boosted levels, create the feeling of elation.

It’s as good as sex. Chocolate also contains phenylethylamine – the same drug that reaches peak levels during orgasm. Probably why having melted chocolate makes things twice the fun.

The only reason you leave that someone or something
behind cause you may think that u don't need
it or it doesn't fulfill your need that moment.

But never regret of your actions cause its what
you felt at the period of time.

Would you rather stay with the one that you know
can take care of you, always been patient with you, making
every single day, your day
or just go with the one you miss, the one that you can open up your thoughts
too, argue and object with.

It kills me deep within to stay and look at him who
hope for me to be his one day and knowing the feelings
won't be there.

I know its not possible to find another him but I rather leave.
Love is like a trial, if it meant to be yours, it will come back.

Something is just pulling me back from my happiness.

Here I am spending my whole day at home,
facing the screen of the computer from afternoon till now,
supposed to work today but last minute changes.
& this week ask for early days in the week but was to no avail.

This week busy with Christmas eve & upcoming dance performance.
I'm working for 2 days in two weeks, 1 day per week.
How great.
How am i suppose to clear my shopping list. -.-'
HAHA.
& get Azroy his A|X watch.
and maman its not A-I-X eh?? ;D

Now I'm eating corned beef with bread, oranges & coco crunch.
That's what I do when I'm still awake at this time.
Stuff in more foood.

Got to run.
Hugs!

I've didn't realize what I've about to loose.

Not appreciative, till its gone.

Been busy working which its a sin towards a few.

But its too late too reminisce everything.

The person once to be just a stranger passing by me

asked questions with obvious answers, now became one of

the people who I've never regret knowing, ever.

It wasn't my intentions to ignore you.

But i'm happy knowing you found someone.

if not I'm the selfish one here.

Thankyou.

Oh gosh, please built up my confidence and show me the right path to take. Amin.

Isn't she such a beauty? Next in the list.

Say goodbye to the past and looking forward
for a better and brighter future ahead.

-tempted to make a Ed Hardy design tatoo.
shit!

Chilling at Starbucks from late afternoon till night.
It was scorching hot when Fie and I reached at Tampines 1.
So we decided to wait for the day to cool down.
So came around to Starbucks, share stories, gossips,
the normal little things girls do.
Then Syed Azmir happen to walk pass.
All the girls' reactions were ofcourse really akward.
Come on fans.
Apa lagi? Noh tell us about the day he met Fauzy Laili.
It was stupidly funny.

Pssst, back in the 80's. Pop Ye Yehh!

Zoukout night was interesting for me.
Although we didn't quite exhaust ourselves in partying
but we still gain something looking from the bright side..
Sorry Maman for troubling you.
I do pity you.
I was speechless, confused, all the uneasy feelings.
How amazing alcohol can do to a person whether
they realize it or not? that's another question.
And Azroy, I'll get for you a new phone. With God's will.
HAHA
I didn't realize that I bath with his phone. Silly girl.
Chivas gives us wings.
Vodka kill us.
The friendship will I treasure, always.

There's a party going on at Wavehouse last Saturday.
It was average but the crowd was crazy.
Chenelle and some pole dancers made the event more
happening for the crowd.
Bump into that crazy chick, Elly.
Thanks for soaking me in the pool while I'm working.
Don't worry, I did get her wet too.
Wohooo!
Dreads? Or Plaits?

DOC MARTENS. So Gonna get it. $209 in the list.

Oh babyyy, wait for me to get youu.

Life has been fantastic. Not as mundane, atleast I know I'm gaining

something out of this busy life.

Work is fun, Dance is great, school is unexplainable.

LIFE ROCKS! (:

Life is colourful depending how you want it to be coloured.

Ok bye.

The World Guinness cup staking for the most people playing in the whole
world (in a day) I think. NYAA organised this event.
To be honest the kindergarten kids could stake up and understand
faster than the 18 19 kids.

Motive of the game is to help the left and right brain to function better.

The day we catched 2012 at Cineleisure. Midnight show.
It doesn't fulfill up to the expectations we had in mind.
But the graphics was cool, it gives breath-holding scenes.

And I got my hair rebond.
Im not use to not washing hair for a day
and here they say not for 3 days.
Whatever it is, think the brighter side, good results.

The hairstylists asked me to get the crystal rebonding, the more expensive
one that is and not recommending the one I've got it for.

At the end of the day, the results was not so bad. Till now.
They are just trying to push the crystal rebonding only.
They can't possibly unsatisfied their customers.

So yea.

Gosh! Was busy with work and school and not forgetting dance.
Since when my schedule was fully tight with
beneficial activities?
Ha ha.
At least I'm glad to know I'm not wasting my time
hanging around and feeling ungrateful of the precious time I'm given.

To laugh is to risk appearing a fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk rejection.
To place your dreams before the crowd is to risk ridicule.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To go forward in the face of overwhelming odds is to risk failure.

But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The person who risks nothing does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.

He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love.

Chained by his certitudes, he is a slave.

He has forfeited his freedom.

Only a person who takes risks is free.

First day was kinda average for me. Nothing extraordinary happen,
just a little change in this year celebration.
One uncle is missing out in action, its not the same like the years before.

Anyways, was heading to some grandaunt's house. Along the corridor
saw this extraordinary plant. Was so unique that triggered me to take a picture of it.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA. And specially to that someone, don't be lazy to visit your relatives.

Fasting month was a busy month for me. Dance practice was
schedule thrice to four times a week.
Practicing for the upcoming performance for Hari Raya function.
But last minutes changes, so will performed after Raya,
with God's will.

Check out the second picture, THE HAND.
It creeps girlfriend out really bad. *tongue stuck-out.

Drink juices, the healthier choice for a healthier lifestyle.
Garda, tu laah rasiah aku. :D

The Ramadhan Feast that I had in one of those nights of breaking fast.
There was Corns, Pizzas, Nasi Goreng, Air Katirah, Porridge from the mosque, mee siam etc.
It looks like we're celebrating the Japan's prince third birthday. Hoho.

I had so much food that night that I actually puik. EEw.
My maid also had the unpleasant feeling and she did too.
At night my mom ask me :Dila, you vomitted just now?
Me: Cause I was too full
Mom: You know vomitting is one of the systoms of prenancy?
Me: (Frown) Nola maah, why think till that extend, nonsense je.
Mom: Mama risau je, dila always go out and come home late nights.

HAHA, she was that paranoid I tell you.
I won't do such things that won't do good for now.

That's just about it.
Hugs!

-I'm sorry, I've try explaining the things I'm feeling.
Its up to you to let out your hatred cause I can possibly understand.
But everybody wants the perfect match for them and no point
going on and pretend everything is fine.
I hate pretenders that explains that I hate pretending.
Don't have to prove anything to anyone as they aren't
in the real situation. Even if they do understand, once people
came back telling them different stories, they might believe them.
So why bother?

-I know who are the people I'm mixing with, who I should trust,
who to share things. So don't try critisizing them without knowing
whether I'm blinded by blending with them. Thankyou for showing what TRUE
FRIENDSHIP really are.

Ohya, I forgot.
I suck at relatinships. OUT.

Been busy with outings and personal time for
upgrading ownself. I feel grateful to reunite again
with the close ones.
Btw yesterday was perfectly fine, had a good time
celebrating NALO's birthday with mates.
Went sentosa to celebrate the occasion
, and I was astonished that in the middle of the night
he and girlfriend
get together(:
Really wishing all the best to them.
celebrated with WAWA, ZACKIE, NALO and not forgetting AZROY(:
Thanks Azroy on behalf of the good time.
Love you guys.

I don't even know whose my best friend anymore.
We keep arguing about the same old matter, I just can't communicate
or connect with her anymore.
Oh well, very much disappointed with her.
Please open up our hearts and hopefully this matter doesn't
popped up again.
Sometimes I hate her for being stubborn but love the way she is.

Everybody's changing, things are different now.
Worried, Future, Life.
I need to go shopping soon.
Too bad this month is a critical month.

Its a sad sad situation~

Mom taught me every single thing that is necessary for the future ahead and the world after.

She's the one that makes a step further and sees every little sacrifises just to make us children learnt and hope to upgrade ourselves in life I'll never have the level of energy that she exerts each and every single time. How I wish.
She's the only one that could make me break out in tears everytime we argue. Whether its my mistake or not even. Looking at my parents relations makes me inspired to get married sometimes. HAHA.
If I've seen the most loveliest and wonderful couple on Earth, it would be my parents.
I'm honoured to be a part of them. Hope I could return back the happiness like when I first lay out a cry on the Earth, how happy they were to receive me, a gift from God.

Mama, Abah. I Love You.

Last season was either people getting back together
or having start of a new relationship with their love ones.
This season is people breaking up and having conflicts.

But my episode of life is as usual just like yesterdays.
And yes, bump into Izwan just now, an old friend.
Gosh, he look so young, looking younger than the times I know him when he was 16
and I'm 14.
Even he bought cigarettes the cashier ask for his I.C whereby when he was a teenager back
then, not even once they ask for his I.C.
Seri muka tu orang kata. *kening naik2.
HAHA. Flashbacks then came in. Those were the pleasant days(:

Might be meeting him tomorrow to catch things up.
Ok, school have been good for me.
29 days to that JENGO's birthday laah. HAHA!

Btw the ART upstairs is from Khai Fuchgaws to express how tall he is.
But the fact is I'm taller. So yea. Thanks Khai (: Didn't notice I got a horn on my head.
HAHA!
Ok goodnight.
Hugs!

The day I went Double O with Mily to watch dance performances.
really had fun that night with my babygirl.
Meet some kind people there.
Overall superb!

Today was just another boring day.
Whole day at home, shake legs.
The best part was had triple ice-cream with
milk bread home-made(:
I can't sleep now, feeling oh so fresh.
& having netball training a couple of hours time.
Ok I'm done!
I wish to have Banana crumble for tomorrow's breakfast.
Impossible.

What shall I do on a Thursday afternoon? Dying from boredness. Mily did ask me out to Powerhouse, Underage Party. HAHA. But no mood to party today. Feel like doing some vigorous exercise. Cheeydebaah. Thought of playing badminton but siblings all busy bee. That's about my sizzling, hot, humid, boring, not interesting, Thursday afternoon.

Why do I always think that today is a Wednesday? Random.
Hugs!

Accompany my babygirl to take her stuffs from her workplace at Muhammad Sultan.
Then just wanted to try the food there, so we had our dinner there as well.
I wanted my Oglio Olio but it has pork, so yea, they served me with other spaghetti dish.
Then just a brief thinking, Dewi and I though of having a glass of wine.
But we were too fickle-minded that moment, HAHA.

Atlast we settled on having a glass of wine each.
It turned out that Dewi's manager give us a bottle of wine for FREE!
Cool or what!
We're like English ladies daaah.
HAHA. Feeling2 je!


In the condition of feeling tipsy, we head to town to meet with Aisha and Fie.
Before that come around to the hair extension shop.
We're so not spend-thrift that day.
Then chill on the rocks for awhile at town, saying our last goodbyes to Aisha and Fie.
Then with Dewi and I again, came down to Esplanade met with Kumar and Farhan.
Farhan '' I saw Fiona seyh.................''
Supposingly its Fiona Xie, but he pronounce it as Fiona Seyh.
HAHA, habis whole day he got by us.

That's about it.
Hugs!